I always thought to myself, why is there a need to go through education? Why do I have to go through such a tough road? Having to endure the days of quizzes, juggling with assignments, expectations, late night studying, weekends back-to-school study sessions and especially when I just cannot seem to understand the crazy theories no matter how I try to understand. Yet halfway through university, I realise that it truly isn't about the As or Bs I can get. It is a journey of discovering my learning attitude and a journey of trusting God with no reservations.

If my parents, particularly my Dad, chose to not push me to JC, I would not have become who I am today. Whether I am better than before, that's subjective. At least, to me, I am a better version of who I were in my teenage years. Throughout my childhood, I remember vividly that my dad always pushed for me to have critical thinking and I will have book after book of critical thinking workbooks, of which I never made it beyond the first page. However, thanks to GP in JC, I have finally developed critical thinking at the age of 17. 

Throughout my JC days, I cried umpteen times, crumbling at the fact that I am not doing well at all and have no more strength to carry on JC life. Literally, I was living from day to day and dreading school. I also struggled with all the insecurities and doubts about myself and had so much shaking happening in the 2 years of JC. It was so much to take but deep inside, Jesus was indeed holding me  tightly and closer than I ever know. He is so faithful. I have never encountered anyone more faithful than Jesus. My heart was crying out for Him to take the little knowledge I have and multiply it because in and out of myself, I just cannot do anything to it. He is the reason I made it to NTU. With my results, I really would not have went to any good institutes but God made a way for me.

In the 4 years of University, I grew closer to Jesus. Jesus never gave up on me and never despised the little knowledge I have. He took it and grew it. He knows what's the best for me and I just grew in His love, strength, favour and grace. Everyday, I declared that His wisdom shall be the One that guides me through Uni. 

The area where I least expect restoration was the area He restored me the most - Jayden. Jesus has truly placed this amazing man in my life to bless me emotionally and intellectually (can't find a better way to present this hahaha). Just when I thought I can be single forever and do without a man, God sent him to me. And God pursued and build him with His grace and love. I truly don't deserve any of these but Jesus gave them all to me, simply because He is good and wants to love lavishly on me.